I feel lost in this dream I’m in. The dream of doing something special, because I feel like I was put in this world to be someone special. But sometimes I have those doubts in myself and dat is wut gets me lost. I be feeling like I should be doing something else, that I’m not good enough. or this wasn’t meant for me to do. But once i start creating I get lost in this world I can’t describe. My real world vanishes and I end up in that dream. It’s just me and that beat. No one else is around even if there was someone around.  I get excited. Excited to be in that dream I’m in. That dream of me doing something special. And I’m that super producer I dream of being. But then…

I wake up from that everyday dream of mine. I start thinking about my real world and see how hard it is to live. The struggle of my goal to make that dream, my reality. I begin to think if I’m being selfish. Selfish with the fact that I live for that dream and goal of mine. When the people around me could use my help. When I can be doing better. Then I begin to be sad, because the people close to me hurt to see me struggle. All they want is to see me better myself. Then that beat I’m working on is no longer my world. I’m wide awake to see my real world. I get scared of it. So I run away…

I run back to that special place I disappear in. And my dream that I had comes back, and starts all over… So I get lost in my world again until I wake up to reality.